Happy New Year

Well its 2011. 2010 was a very crazy year. It was definitely a roller coaster. The highs were very high and the lows were very low. But its over. And now we look forward to a new year. So it made me think about what I want to do this year. What are my new years resolutions I guess you could see. Its more about just what I want to do this year to be a better person.

#1 I want to read my Bible more. Not just more but I want to read through it this year. Isaiah has a one year Bible and I want to do it. I decided that I will read the Old Testament portion in the morning to start my day out right, and then the other portions at night before bed. I think it will be good for me. I've never read through the entire Bible and I tend to give up when I try. But I wanted to do something to really grow my relationship with God and grow my knowledge in Him. I would say this is the most important resolution.

#2 I want to put myself last and God then others first. I know this is ambiguous but I want to consciously work on that. I need to show God to everyone around me. I don't do very well in that. I feel like I hide my faith far too much. I don't want to brow beat people with it so they turn away from my Lord, but I want to show how wonderful it is to worship and serve God. I want to serve others more also. That will come from serving God and just out of that service I will serve others. The person I want to serve more for sure is my husband. I tend to be selfish towards Isaiah and not thinking of him, but thinking of myself first. This is not what marriage is about. I need to serve him and think of him first.

#3 Finally, I want to work on my weight. I want to work on it in two ways. First of all, I want to be happy with my body. I have always hated my body and how I look. I come from families of naturally larger people. I'm not trying to use that as an excuse. Its true though. I don't want to constantly be hating myself for how I look and how much I weigh. I want to be happy about myself, and the body God blessed me with. Then I want to go on a diet and lose weight. I'm thinking about kick starting it with the slim fast diet. Then work on just living healthier. I want to eat much healthier, and start working out. I need to get fit.

So there we go. I've put out there my failures and struggles and what I want to do. I was brutally honest here, and that is hard. But its all true. This is what I want to do this year. Its not all I want to do but its what I am resolving to work on. I tend to give up easily and I'm worried that I'll give up. I want accountability and for people to help me on these goals.

So happy new year. Lets hope its great.