First of all, I am learning to wait on His timing. So many things I want right now. I want to to be done with school, and now it seems like it may be longer than I thought before. I want to be done and move on with my life. I don't feel like a college student. I mean I am married, and settled into life. Its hard sometimes still being a student. Another thing is kids. I love kids and I can't wait to start a family. But on those, and other things, right now God is saying wait. I have to say I don't wait well. I have never been patient. And for God to say wait on these things and just trust is hard. Its hard because right now it feels like my life is so up in the air and its hard to just put my trust in God and know that He has everything under control. Its hard to trust Him and know that His timing is best and that I need to just relax and go with His plan.
Another thing I'm learning right now is that my identity has to be in Christ. I've been struggling with who am I. Am I a wife, a student or what? But I was talking to Isaiah and he was saying that it doesn't matter, because I am who I am, and my identity is in Christ. I am His, the rest of my identity does not matter as much. That really made me think. All my life my identity had been wrapped up in my school, or my relationship, but that is wrong. My identity needs to be in my God.
Finally, God's shown me what a support system I have. Since my miscarriage so many people have come up beside me and talked to me. Most of my life I've been very closed off. Its how I was raised. Its like you can't let them see you fall. But I realized that its ok. Most people understand and are there to help. Its ok to let others see you struggle. And maybe it will help them when they have a struggle.
So that's my life. Or what I'm learning in my life. Its a wonderfuf life and I am so glad that God is still teaching me and growing me, even though that growing process is not always easy.