Wednesday, March 30, 2011

What I'm Learning

I wanted to share some things I'm learning right now. I can't say its anything profound, but its what God is teaching me right now. 

First of all, I am learning to wait on His timing. So many things I want right now. I want to to be done with school, and now it seems like it may be longer than I thought before. I want to be done and move on with my life. I don't feel like a college student. I mean I am married, and settled into life. Its hard sometimes still being a student. Another thing is kids. I love kids and I can't wait to start a family. But on those, and other things, right now God is saying wait. I have to say I don't wait well. I have never been patient. And for God to say wait on these things and just trust is hard. Its hard because right now it feels like my life is so up in the air and its hard to just put my trust in God and know that He has everything under control. Its hard to trust Him and know that His timing is best and that I need to just relax and go with His plan. 

Another thing I'm learning right now is that my identity has to be in Christ. I've been struggling with who am I. Am I a wife, a student or what? But I was talking to Isaiah and he was saying that it doesn't matter, because I am who I am, and my identity is in Christ. I am His, the rest of my identity does not matter as much. That really made me think. All my life my identity had been wrapped up in my school, or my relationship, but that is wrong. My identity needs to be in my God. 

Finally, God's shown me what a support system I have. Since my miscarriage so many people have come up beside me and talked to me. Most of my life I've been very closed off. Its how I was raised. Its like you can't let them see you fall. But I realized that its ok. Most people understand and are there to help. Its ok to let others see you struggle. And maybe it will help them when they have a struggle. 

So that's my life. Or what I'm learning in my life. Its a wonderfuf life and I am so glad that God is still teaching me and growing me, even though that growing process is not always easy. 

5 comments:

  1. thanks for sharing your heart! I have also struggled with finding my identity in other things than Christ. I am learning that God has me where I am in life for a specific reason. His plans are always perfect! This verse is an encouragement to me...

    "He has made everything beautiful in his time." Ecclesiastes 3:11

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  3. I know, it is so hard to wait on His timing. But, you know that is the one and only perfect timing. I love your blog and your honesty. Following you from the hop. Hope you can visit me. I felt compelled to find a scripture I have tucked away in my journal that I always go to when I am in the "waiting" mode.
    "But these things I plan won't happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, do not despair, for these things will surely come to pass. Just be patient. They will not be overdue a single day." Habakkuk 2:3.
    God Bless,
    Shelley

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  4. The growing process is not always easy, but God has his plans for us, it may not always be on our time, but he definitely has a plan! What a great post!!!!

    I'm a new follower from the Friday blog hop. I would love a follow back! Have a very happy Friday!

    Hope
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