tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31838196093228003302024-02-18T22:04:41.664-05:00Kady DidLoving my husband, cuddling with my cats, learning about God and now, learning to be a motherKatiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.comBlogger127125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-83930491228704685102012-10-16T15:05:00.000-04:002012-10-16T15:05:00.226-04:00Announcing the Arrival of Seth Jacob<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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So I know I promised to post more, but then something happened. I had a baby. And somehow blogging became a lower priority, after you know feeding baby, changing baby, sleeping, eating, showering etc. But today Seth is one month old and I am starting to get the hang of it. So again, I say I will work on blogging more about my life.<br />
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Seth Jacob arrive September 16 at 4:32 pm. He was 7 lb 2 oz and 20 inches long. After weeks of painful contractions and being told he would come anytime he decided to do things his own way (as he has done this entire time).<br />
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So we waited. I started feeling quiet a bit of pain after about an hour, and we upped the epidural. About thirty minutes later (it was about an hour and half since the midwife had checked me) I told Isaiah he needed to get the nurse NOW.<br />
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I didn't know what was going on, but I could tell something had changed. Suddenly I wanted to push, and I felt strange. Isaiah got the nurse who checked me. She looked at me with this shocked look on her face (very disconcerting, I have to say) and said "Lets have a baby now." Turns out I had gone from 4 cm to 10 cm in an hour and a half. The midwife and nurse were completely shocked. The nurse rushed to get the midwife because the baby was coming quickly.<br />
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After 45 minutes of pushing, Seth was born.<br />
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The moment I saw him for the first time was amazing. I love thinking about it. They put him on my stomach and I just started crying. It had been such a rough road to get to that point. I have to say, it was all worth it.<br />
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He is a wonderful baby. He is so adorable, and pretty easy. I will post more about the first month later. Thank you for all the support through everything that happened.<br />
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<br />Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-70743774105966375652012-09-01T13:24:00.001-04:002012-09-01T13:24:46.786-04:00Finally... An UpdateI know my blog has non-existant the last few months. I am so sorry. I don't have a good reason for this, it just has been a crazy, rough, few months and when things slowed down I felt very burned out on blogging. I am hoping to get back to it with some semblance of normalcy.<br />
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So, dear reader, I am sorry. I guess this post will be an update on where I am in my pregnancy, my life, my family etc. I feel like I could write a book on how much has happened these last few months. I am sorry that I haven't kept you all up to date!!<br />
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I will start with my pregnancy. I am still pregnant. Seth Jacob is due at the end of this month. I honestly cannot wait to meet him. I am filled with so much love for him, its hard to even explain. The pregnancy has continued to be very rough. I am still struggling with hyperemesis (severe, way beyond normal pregnancy, nausea and vomitting) but thankfully it died down enough that I can maintain some little bit of normalcy. I have been tons of contractions (aka Braxton Hicks) and the doctor says that with how Seth is looking, he thinks Seth will be coming in just a few weeks. I am so excited! Today I hit 36 weeks (or 9 months) so I am ready.<br />
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Yesterday I had an ultrasound and it was amazing to see my little man. The dr showed me that he has hair (which was quite exciting!) and showed me his hands and legs. Finally the dr looked at his face and he was sucking his thumb. Seeing him suck on his thumb, and being able to see his tongue moving, and his fingers all curled together was such a surreal movement. I started to tear up. So many times in this pregnancy its been easy to focus on the negative with how I'm feeling and what is going on around me, but in that moment it hit me that God gave me a little baby. This baby is not just a lump inside me that makes me sick, he is a real little baby that I love. Its hard to describe the feeling, and honestly I can't believe that I am confessing that I sometimes felt like it was a lump making me sick, but I promised honesty here. But I saw his little lips and tongue sucking, and his chest rise as he practiced breathing I was filled with a complete and total love for this little boy that God has allowed me to carry inside me.<br />
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Next I'll give you a short update on my life. Isaiah graduated college! It was a very exciting day for all of us. He has worked so hard and for so long, and with lots of help and support from our Savior, he walked across the stage and graduated. It was a very proud day. After he graduated we moved from St. Petersburg, FL to Ocala, FL. Isaiah is the general manager of a graphics company (aka any kind of digital designed things such as business cards, signs, tshirts, banners etc) and seems to really love it. God has allowed the business to be doing well, and again I am so proud of him.<br />
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I am learning to be used to Ocala. Its nice being closer to our families, especially during the pregnancy. I can't wait to introduce Seth to all his vast amounts of family, who are all very excited that he is coming<br />
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I would give an update on what God is teaching me, but honestly with all that has happened that would take far more space than my little blog could contain. I will post more later about it, I promise. But I think the biggest thing I am learning, and have been throughout this pregnancy, is how little I really have control over in my life. God really is in control of everything! I thought I had control over my body, where I lived, my friends etc, but everything I thought I controlled, God took the control out of my hands and said, "Dear daughter, you really don't control it, so just let Me handle it." I really am trying. Its a constant struggle to allow Him to be in control and not want to grab it back. But every time I try to take it back, everything just falls apart. I wish I could say I am the picture of contentment and peace in my circumstances (those of you that really know me are probably dying laughing at this picture right now) but alas I am not. I am very discontent and impatient most of the time. Thankfully I serve a patient and loving God that keeps working with me in all my humanness.<br />
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That is all for now. I will try to write more. I hope to post nursery and belly pictures later. Hopefully this is the start of being more blog oriented again. Thank you for sticking with me through the long lull dear faithful reader.Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-3304917207245864082012-05-05T16:46:00.001-04:002012-05-05T16:47:26.502-04:00FREE Blogger Giveaway Signups! Ultimate Baby Shower<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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So we were supposed to find out the gender of baby T on May 15. We had been getting so many comments and questions about the gender and when we would find out. I was so excited to find out for sure what it was, though we were pretty sure we knew what it was.<br />
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Since we found out we were pregnant Isaiah and I had been pretty sure we were having a girl. We had called the baby "little girl". Most people in our life thought it was a girl. Everyone seemed so sure. We were so sure we had only picked out a girl's name. Isaiah was so sure that it was a girl he didn't want to even think about boy's names. I had a little girl's nursery all picked out.<br />
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Well I went in for a routine doctor's appointment and the midwife I was seeing that day couldn't find the baby's heartbeat. She wanted me to get an ultrasound just to make sure everything was ok. I honestly didn't complain because I got to see the baby. The ultrasound tech said everything looks great, but do you want to know the gender. Though I wasn't expecting to find out the gender at that point, I jumped at the chance. She said, "well its definitely a little boy."<br />
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I have to admit, I was totally shocked. I was so excited though. I couldn't stop smiling. I then had to tell Isaiah. I went by his work to tell him in person, and he wasn't there. I couldn't hold it in. I was thrilled. I called him and he told him. He was so shocked. He had been so sure, but he was excited.<br />
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After finding out it was a boy, we had to rethink, well everything. I started looking at new nursery ideas, that would work for a little man. And then we had to start working on a name.<br />
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I settled on a nursery but we were still very stumped on a name. It was not easy to give someone a name they would have for the rest of their life! Finally one night at about 11 pm Isaiah texted me a name, though he was about 20 feet away. I loved it! So we finally decided on the name.<br />
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Our little boy's name will be Seth Jacob. I can't wait to meet little Seth. He is such a miracle from God. I never imagined being on this journey right now. Its been a crazy journey, but God has been so real and has given me His strength when I felt like I had no more strength.Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-6014722530741588772012-04-25T10:55:00.000-04:002012-04-25T10:55:11.386-04:00Your Moving!Dear Baby T,<br />
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I love you so much. I got to see you this week on the ultrasound. You are getting so big! I couldn't believe it. I know you are growing, but to see how much you have changed always amazes me. It makes me so excited to meet you and hold you. Sometimes I lay in bed (when I'm unable to sleep, which is quite frequent right now) I wonder what you will look like. I wonder if you will have daddy's blue eyes, my smile (it runs in my family you know) or daddy's nose. I think about holding you and watching you smile.<br />
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You started REALLY kicking this week. I have felt you for a while now, but this week you started to really move. I love feeling you move around and it always makes me smile. You love when daddy talks. You always get very active when he is around and talking. I you pray you and him will always have a special bond.<br />
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You love when I put on some music to worship God. Any time any music comes on about your Jesus, you start moving. It makes me so excited to teach you old hymns, new songs and other music to worship our God. I can't wait to teach you about our God. I can't wait to tell you the stories of the Bible, and show you the wonders of our Lord. I love Him so much, and I pray that will fall in love with Him more than I am. I pray you will have a strong faith in our God at a very young age.<br />
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I can't wait to meet you. I love you little one.<br />
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Your MommyKatiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-12904797161379143342012-04-09T13:26:00.000-04:002012-04-09T13:26:30.720-04:00Letter to Baby, Week 15Dear Baby Tamblingson,<br />
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First of all, your daddy and I already love you so much. I can't imagine what life will be like with you. I know that life will totally change once you arrive, and it already is, but I can't wait for that day. I love feeling you move, and knowing you are there. I love thinking about you, and wondering what you will look like.<br />
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Your daddy already loves you so much. I wish you could see how his face lights up when he talks to you. He loves holding my stomach and talking about you. He loves that when he talks to you, you start moving around. He can't wait to meet you.<br />
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I know this time has been hard on both of us. I know that we will be ok. I just worry about you. I know that with this sickness, you can be in danger and it scares me. I know that they say most babies whose mothers have hyperemesis are ok, but I'm still scared for both of us. Sometimes I feel like I'm already a bad mother to you because I can't give you what you need, though I know that there is nothing I can do about it.<br />
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I love you,<br />
Your MommyKatiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-69122763529849613112012-04-09T13:04:00.000-04:002012-04-09T13:04:25.982-04:00Quick Pregnancy UpdateIts been a very rough pregnancy so far. Right now I am still very sick, and struggling. I'm on bed rest and still sick. But I am attempting to get back to posting. I have seen on some other blogs where mommy's wrote letters to their baby on the blog. I think its sweet, and wanted to start.<br />
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By the way, baby is doing well. We are 15 weeks along. Baby is growing well. We are happy that things are going so well. Soon I will post pictures of the bump and sono. But for now, you get my journal updates. :)<br />
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Please be praying for baby and I. There is worry that there could be some serious issues later on due to how sick I am. I am ready to feel better.Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-81074428972646658112012-03-23T13:44:00.000-04:002012-03-23T13:44:14.558-04:00Big NewsSo I know that I have been totally out of contact for quite a while. I am sorry. The last few months have been completely crazy, and its just been hard to write. I wanted to write a quick note about what was going on, and I promise to fill you all in more later. So as you know, things were crazy with my health. We weren't sure what was going to happen.<br />
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I wasn't getting better, and the dr couldn't figure out why I was still saying so sick, and losing weight so fast. I went to the dr and we talked about the next steps we would take to figure out why I couldn't keep food down, and what to do about having a second surgery. We decided to go ahead with a second surgery, and she was going to send me to a GI specialist to have a scope and figure out whats wrong. At the end of the visit she came back in the room with a shocked look on her face.<br />
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She said, well your pregnant. We aren't sure why we didn't catch this with all you have happened, but you are definitely pregnant. She couldn't believe it, we couldn't believe. Its been a total rollercoaster.<br />
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After being told I may always be infertile, and getting pregnant would be very difficult, and how sick I was, this baby is a miracle. The dr said she was amazed that I didn't miscarry with all the procedures and medicine I had. We were so shocked and nervous about losing the baby.<br />
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Well I am 12 weeks now, and the baby is very healthy. Its been a very rough pregnancy, and that is why I haven't posted. We are hoping its starting to get better, and I will fill you all in more later. I've never gotten this far along with the pregnancy, and seeing the baby on the ultrasound, and hearing its heartbeat, has been amazing.<br />
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I promise to post more later, especially when I feel better.Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-81043741102982153832012-01-31T12:09:00.001-05:002012-01-31T12:09:29.303-05:00Doctors VisitSo I went to the doctor. I joked with the nurse that I should get a frequent visitor card like a frequent flyer vard. Its ridiculous. But anyway, I went to the doctor. It was all kinds of fun.<br />
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So I talked to the doctor. She is concerned that the vomiting is something wrong with my stomach, such as ulcers or something like that. She put me on a new medicine to try out for a week. Next Monday we are going to see how I'm doing. If the medicine isn't working for my stomach than she will probably send me to a gastrointestinal specialist.<br />
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Thankfully the pain is doing a lot better, and the doctor said its looking more like I may not have to have that second surgery. We are really praying that is the case.<br />
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Thank you for the prayers.Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-17866237580249339832012-01-28T17:12:00.000-05:002012-01-28T17:12:15.392-05:00Post-Surgery UpdateI want to start this post out by saying how much both Isaiah and I appreciate all the love and support we have gotten through this very rough time in our lives. So many people have come up beside us and prayed and loved on us through everything. We really can't thank you enough. Your love and support have really encouraged us. <div><br />
</div><div>I cannot believe that one month ago I thought I was pregnant. One month ago I was so happy. One month ago my life was completely different. I feel like I have lived an entire lifetime in one month. I have gone from one of the highest, happiest times of my life, to one of the lowest and scariest times of my life in a few short weeks. I feel like I have felt every emotion known to man.</div><div><br />
</div><div>I wish I could say that through everything, and all the emotions all I have felt towards God is thankful and worshipful, but I honestly have struggled with all that also. I have had days where I am just in awe of Him, and praise Him for whatever He is doing in my life, and other days where I am just frustrated and almost angry at Him for not only taking my baby away, but also allowing me to go through all this with my health. I know its not the good Christian thing to say, but its the honest Christian thing to say. I have struggled with understanding, though I have come to realize that many of the great people in the Bible struggled with many of the same emotions, and yet God holds them up to us as examples. </div><div><br />
</div><div>I keep thinking of Jacob. Like Jacob I am wrestling with God. I am wrestling with Him and not understanding Him. But when you read the story of Jacob and the wrestling, when he wrestled with God is when He got closer with God and God became an intimate part of His life. I can say that through all my wrestling, that I have drawn closer to God, and allowed Him to be more of a part in my life. I don't understand why He is allowing this, but I know that He has never left my side. I feel like I'm caught up in this hurricane (I"m from Florida so I understand hurricanes) of crazy emotions, bad news about my health, and physical ailments and all I can cling to is God.</div><div><br />
</div><div>I will admit I have been somewhat discouraged this week. It feels like we are never getting good news through everything. It feels almost like every time there is "well worst case is ...." its always the worst case. I have to admit I've cried to Isaiah, texted my sister in law in tears, and called my mom just needing some encouragement. My family has been such a help in helping me to stay strong when I need it. God gives them all just the words to say, when I need to hear them. </div><div><br />
</div><div>Physically I am still struggling. My body is just physically worn out. Its not like I'm sleepy tired, its just feeling like my body is physically exhausted of all its been through. I am not able to do much at all. I am still constantly throwing up, and nauseas. We think its honeslty worse than before the surgery. The good news is that I'm losing weight, but not in a healthy way. I'm barely eating, and most of the time when I do eat I throw it back up. The doctor is not sure why I am still so sick, and said that should be happening.</div><div><br />
</div><div>The doctor is also saying that there is a very big chance I will have to have a second surgery to remove my ovary. This second surgery will be much more intense than the first one was. We won't know for sure until at least after my first doctors visit (which is in a week) maybe not for a few weeks after that. </div><div><br />
</div><div>Thankfully the very intense pain is mostly gone. I only have pain when I lay in a certain position or stay in one position too long. That has been one good sign.</div><div><br />
</div><div>So please keep praying for me and Isaiah. All this has been rough on him also. We are still facing a lot of uncertainty about what will happen next, and even what is still happening to my body. It doesn't seem to be over, but I know that God is my Healer. I am claiming that and believing it. I know that He can choose to miraculously heal me, or heal me through doctors. I also believe in James 5:16 "...pray for one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual prayer of a righteous man availeth much." </div><div><br />
</div><div>Thank you for all your prayer, love and support. Isaiah and I greatly appreciate it. </div><div><br />
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The winners were picked using random.org.<br />
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The winner of Giveaway #1 with Amanda Simpkins is:<br />
<div style="text-align: center;"><b>Angie Alford</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="text-align: left;">The winner of Giveaway #2 with designs by maya is:</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>deanna</b> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="text-align: left;">Congratulations to the winners! I will be emailing you today. Please respond within 48 hours or I will have to pick a different winner. I hope you love your prizes!!!!!</div>Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-9323722672012402152012-01-19T09:52:00.000-05:002012-01-19T09:52:29.632-05:00Update After SurgeryHello my dear readers. I wanted to update you all on how my surgery went, and what is going on from here. I first want to say I really appreciate all the prayers and support that have come from those of you on facebook, on the blog, and others. I have not been able to personally thank every one that has been praying, and probably am not even aware of everyone that has been lifting me up in prayer. The amount of support and care I have had through this rough time has been truly amazing to Isaiah and I. We covet your prayers and thank you for everything.<div><br />
</div><div>Also, in describing the surgery I will use some female medical terms, and if that makes you uncomfortable please stop reading now. I don't want to make anyone upset. </div><div><br />
</div><div>So surgery yesterday. Everything went pretty well. Once the doctor actually got in and started the surgery, the situation was a lot worse than originally expected. It turned out that my fallopian tube and my ovary had completely melded together, and then had melded to the side wall of my body. There was also a mass behind my uterus, which was removed. The doctor realized that the fallopian tube was already completely destroyed, much more than originally thought, and had to completely remove. She is a little concerned that the ovary may also have to be removed, but we won't know for another month or so. Also, the mass she found was sent for a biopsy, but she is not worried about it and thinks it is from the miscarriage.</div><div><br />
</div><div>The good news is that I am doing pretty good. I am alert (as you can see from the fact that I am posting). I am very dizzy and in a ton of pain, which makes walking difficult. Other than that I am doing pretty good. Today is supposed to the worst day, and so far not too bad. We will see as the day goes on. Thank you so much for all your prayers. I know they have helped.</div>Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-77916221351294527102012-01-17T17:28:00.000-05:002012-01-17T17:28:25.013-05:00An Update on Me, and What I'm Learning about GodHello dear readers. Wow how fast life can change in one month. It was less than a month ago that I announced I was pregnant. I look back over this month and feel kind of like its been a lifetime in one short month. Anyway, one month ago I announced I was pregnant ( a little less but you get the picture). Then I found out that I wasn't pregnant, and something was wrong with me, and they had no clue what it was. Then I found out that I miscarried and got a very bad infection.<br />
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Because of the infection I started an intense round of antibiotics, which the doctor hoped would basically take care of the infection and that would be the end of it. The doctor did say that if the antibiotics didn't work that I would have to have surgery. So I rested, took my antibiotics and hoped and prayed to get better.<br />
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Well, I didn't. I found out that the antibiotics did not work, and surgery is the next option. The doctor considered it serious enough that I have to have surgery tomorrow, as in Wednesday, as in yeah wow.<br />
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Right now I am just reeling. The only surgery I have ever had is my wisdom teeth taken out. I am struggling with feeling really scared, and confused honestly. I know that Christians go through hard times, at least I said I know that. But when this all happened to me, its like somehow my heart didn't know it. I struggled so much with why would God not only make me miscarry, again, but then make me sick to the point of having to have surgery.<br />
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Honestly for over a week I was just numb. I didn't feel anything for a while. I kind of just lived. My husband kept saying that something would just trigger all the emotions, and then I could finally start working through things. And of course that is what happened (wow he is so smart).<br />
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I saw something and all of a sudden, I felt, well everything at once. Honestly the pain was so intense that I just didn't know what to do. I started to feel, and it was not pleasant. I swung between just sad about the loss of my baby, being angry with God for doing this, wondering if being a Christian was even worth it, and just confusion as to why all this was happening.<br />
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I have to say writing this is not easy. I hate admitting my failings, especially in this way. I hate admitting to you that I questioned even something so basic to me as my faith in God. I also worry that someone will take it and just roll their eyes and think I am being over-dramatic. Well, that is how I felt, and I promised you all I would be completely honest with you, my dear readers. So there is me, being honest.<br />
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Anyway, I was feeling completely, well emotional. I just wasn't sure how to handle all my emotions, and everything that was going. Then two things happened that really helped me and helped me have a peace from God about the whole situation. First the song Stronger by Mandisa came on the radio. It really helped me to see that this is God making me stronger, and God is in control.<br />
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Then a dear friend sent me an encouraging note that really helped. She sent me the verses Psalms 16:8-9, which of course, was exactly what I needed to hear.<br />
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<div style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Charis SIL', charis, Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">"I have set the LORD always before me: because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoiceth: my flesh also shall rest in hope."</div><div style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Charis SIL', charis, Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">These verses really helped me to see that God is with me, I don't need to worry, be scared. I will be ok. He is in control. Then I was doing some reading on my own and came across Psalms 121, </span></div><div style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br />
</span></div><div style="background-color: white;"></div><div style="font-family: 'Charis SIL', charis, Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><b>"</b></span>I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. <span style="font-size: 16px;">My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth. </span><span style="font-size: 16px;">He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber. </span><span style="font-size: 16px;">Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep. </span><span style="font-size: 16px;">The LORD is thy keeper: the LORD is thy shade upon thy right hand. </span><span style="font-size: 16px;">The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night. </span><span style="font-size: 16px;">The LORD shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul.</span><span style="font-size: 16px;">The LORD shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore."</span></div><div style="font-family: 'Charis SIL', charis, Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 16px;"><br />
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<div style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">These verses really spoke to me about my God, the Creator of the world, the Lord of the universe, who is watching over me, and already knows what the outcome of all this is. He hasn't thrown me, and those I love, in this situation just to torture us; He put us in the situation out of love </span></div><div style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br />
</span></div><div style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">So tomorrow I go into surgery. I have to admit I still have some trepidation and am a little scared. But I know that my God is in control. I know that He already knows the outcome of my surgery, and this situation and He will hold me through it all.</span></div>Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-50278285868432865652012-01-11T19:26:00.000-05:002012-01-11T19:26:07.659-05:00What Is Going OnI know I never sent you all an update, and I'm so sorry. Since I went to the doctor life has been crazy! So anyway, after multiple tests and several hours spent at the doctor's office, I was diagnosed with an infected tube. I evidently had a miscarriage and not everything passed and it got infected.<br />
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I was put on antibiotics, and we really hoping they work. I go back to the doctor later this week to find out if they worked. If they don't, I will probably have to have surgery. We are really praying that the antibiotics work.<br />
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We are thankful that it was nothing more serious, and that it will be resolved. We are thankful, that hopefully, it can be easily resolved. It could have been much worse.<br />
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Please keep praying that the antibiotics work and that this is a simple solution. Thank you for all your support and prayers. We really appreciate it.Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-62311390949685062392012-01-09T12:10:00.000-05:002012-01-09T12:10:55.042-05:00Update on UsWow what a week it has been. It has been a very emotional week that has included many tears and many hard days. Isaiah and I have had so much support and so many people praying. It has meant so much to both of us.<div><br />
</div><div>For those of you that don't follow me on facebook, I'll try to fill you in a little more. Last Tuesday I went to the doctor for a routine visit. They did a pregnancy test and it was positive. Everything seemed fine. But then the test changed and went negative. The nurse/midwife was puzzled and sent me for some blood work to check my hormone levels. The results came back negative for pregnancy, and when she called me she said the levels show that something is wrong. She said that from the test results it looks like something is seriously wrong. </div><div><br />
</div><div>She threw some different things around, but basically nothing is for sure. The doctor thinks that it is something serious, and I have to go back in today for more tests and doctors visits. </div><div><br />
</div><div>Its been a very long week, and we would appreciate prayers right now. We don't know whats going on, but we are just praying that its something simple and easily fixed, and everything will be ok. </div><div><br />
</div><div>I know that God is in control, and that He has a plan. I'm trying to know that He will watch over us. Its been rough. God has definitely held our hand through this time, and I know He will continue to.</div>Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-50072397581646717812012-01-05T22:03:00.000-05:002012-01-05T22:03:08.995-05:00A Word from Katie's HusbandHi, this is Isaiah, Katie's husband with a few words on behalf of Katie.<br />
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This past Tuesday Katie went to the doctor's for a preliminary visit. They gave Katie a pregnancy test that started out positive and then faded back to negative. They then ran a pregnancy blood panel on her which came back negative on Wednesday. The doctor's office expressed a lot of concern over this because her body is still reacting like it is still pregnant and the hormone levels her body is displaying is very abnormal. They wanted her to come in as soon as possible for more tests so we are going back to the doctor's office Monday. We don't know what is going on, but from what we are hearing this is very serious.<br />
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Katie is upset about all of this and is very overwhelmed by everything which is why I am writing this now. Please keep us in your prayers because we have no clue what is wrong. Thank you for all the prayers. God Bless.<br />
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IsaiahKatiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-27779599804455168162012-01-03T19:16:00.002-05:002012-01-28T16:20:04.224-05:00Babypalooza Giveaway #2 Design By Maya<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://img3.etsystatic.com/il_570xN.265504263.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="http://img3.etsystatic.com/il_570xN.265504263.jpg" width="162" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>This giveaway is now closed.</b></div><br />
Here is the second giveaway. I am so excited about this giveaway as well. I found this shop while looking for nursery ideas/art. I found the prints so cute,and sweet. I fell in love with everything.I really wanted to share this with all of you, my dear readers. I asked Maya if she would be interested in having a giveaway on my blog and she agreed.<br />
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Something she told me about her prints is that she uses only the best ingredients in making her art. The paper is not just typical card stock, but instead high quality paper.The colors she uses are also high quality. And you can see it in her art. They are so beautiful! She also matches art to the nursery bedding!<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://img2.etsystatic.com/il_570xN.278984406.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="http://img2.etsystatic.com/il_570xN.278984406.jpg" width="161" /></a></div>Maya has offered to give one of her beautiful 8x10 prints to one of you, my dear readers. YAY I am jealous (as I usually am with giveaways) because I am in love with her sweet art.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18px;">The giveaway ends January 21. Please make sure your email is visible in your comment or blog. Also. make sure to post each entry as a separate comment to count as different entries. This giveaway is open to those in the United States (I'm sorry to those of who are international). The winner must pay for shipping for their prize.</span><br />
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</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">2. Follow my blog publicly on GCF. 1 entry </span></div><div style="text-align: center;">3. Heart <a href="http://www.etsy.com/shop/DesignByMaya?page=2#">Design By Maya</a>1 entry</div><div style="text-align: center;">4. Buy something from <a href="http://www.etsy.com/shop/DesignByMaya?page=2#">Design By Maya</a>. 3 entry</div><div style="text-align: center;">5. Blog/tweet/faceboo/post to giveaway site (or somehow get the word out) and post link for verification. 1 entry per post</div><div style="text-align: center;">6. Vote for my blog on the fence (see side bar). This can be done daily. 1 entry per day per vote</div>Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com52tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-28221523505044627102012-01-03T13:39:00.001-05:002012-01-03T13:39:45.844-05:00Babypalooza Giveaway #1 Amanda Simpkins<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div>So my dear readers, because of my wonderful blessing from God of my pregnancy I wanted to give back and get you all excited about something. While I can't give you all a baby (not sure if all of you would want that anyway hehe) I can do not one but two giveaways. I'm calling it babypalooza. They are baby themed, but definitely not just for mamas (or daddys) because these giveaways are great for everyone!<br />
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</div><div>I'm so excited to introduce you to this first shop. I found her shop and I instantly fell in love with all her products. Then I started talking to Amanda, and wow I just absolutely love her already. It was one of those times when you just know she is a kindred spirit as Anne Shirley would say. Her sweet personality and obvious love of God was neat. I could tell that God was so important to her and just Everything in her life, which you know is something dear to my heart. </div><div><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg08EbrZQ1Kao5IG8ZCIT9fUMgK4u5pt87YZy9azNXBjyDJqQH6HFxH_f8wu__1DunYLaEA09wEioZ3HaCytdi7T7v_rxi1rEK0VJiH7kD_Qnhdl5UXbSs0bUwjJ5yIR2llejTje_yYpti5/s300/2DCO6493.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg08EbrZQ1Kao5IG8ZCIT9fUMgK4u5pt87YZy9azNXBjyDJqQH6HFxH_f8wu__1DunYLaEA09wEioZ3HaCytdi7T7v_rxi1rEK0VJiH7kD_Qnhdl5UXbSs0bUwjJ5yIR2llejTje_yYpti5/s300/2DCO6493.jpg" /></a></div><div>Her shop is so special because she is using to money to fund her adoption (you will hear more from her later) but I thought that was so sweet. Adoption is so special to me, and I was so excited to feature her shop. I don't normally do this, but Amanda is so special and her shop is so special that I really want to encourage you, my dear readers, to help support her adoption and buy something from her shop. </div><div><br />
</div><div>Her shop features bandanna dresses for girls, and art that is personalized. I love her art. She writes whatever you want, and uses the colors you want. Its such a neat idea. I am looking forward to ordering from her when I set up my nursery for the baby.</div><div><br />
</div><div><a href="http://img1.etsystatic.com/il_570xN.292156557.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="http://img1.etsystatic.com/il_570xN.292156557.jpg" width="112" /></a>I wanted to help you, my dear readers, to get to know Amanda a little better so I asked her some questions and asked her to give you all some information about her life. I know you will love her too.</div><div><br />
</div><div><a href="http://img0.etsystatic.com/il_570xN.299476252.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="http://img0.etsystatic.com/il_570xN.299476252.jpg" width="112" /></a><span style="font-family: inherit;">"</span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: inherit;"><span style="line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">I started my shop for one simple reason: to fund our adoption from Ethiopia. When my husband and I decided that we would for sure pursue adoption, I immediately went into money mode. I am a teacher, and he is a self employeed landscaper. We do fine, and we are content with what God has blessed us with; however, to try and come up with an extra $30,000 and still raise our 4 biological children was going to be a challenge. We are taking it in small increments, and we pray specifically for a certain amount. When we get that goal met, we move on to the next amount. I decided to begin painting these canvases just to see if they would sell. Any little bit helps. All of the money, every bit, will go straight towards our adoption expenses and help literally save the life of an infant boy somewhere in Ethiopia.</span><span style="line-height: 16px; text-align: left;"> </span></span></div><span style="background-color: white; font-family: inherit;"><br style="line-height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left;" /><span style="line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">We are using America World Adoption agency. We are in the very beginning stages, and we mailed off our paper application and first fee on Tuesday, December 27. We sat down Christmas night and completed the paperwork. We are requesting to adopt an infant boy ages newborn - 14 months. We have 4 biological children of our own. The two oldest are boys, and the two youngest are girls. Our new son will be our 5th child! WOW! I know...I would have never thought I would have 5 children!! :) My husband and I have been married 12 years. God is so good, he has been so good to us, and we want to extend that love to a child who needs it. I wish we could bring them all home with us! We wil llikely bring home a 7-10 month old boy...who will weigh about 10-12 pounds! That alone breaks my heart. Our youngest daughter is almost 11 months, and she weighs 24 pounds!</span><br style="line-height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left;" /><br style="line-height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left;" /><span style="line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">In my shop, one would find cute little handpainted name canvases for homes, little girls' rooms, hairbow holders, etc. I am expanding anytime something pops into my mind that I can make and make well. :) I have whipped out my sewing machine, giving myself a few refresher courses, and I am working on adding little girl bandana dresses in the mix. As soon as we get our adoption tshirts printed and ready to go, those, too, will be added in the store! I am excited to see those come! I try really hard to make each piece something I would want to have in my house. My favorites are probably the "Wash your hands. Use soap. love mom" sign and the initial letter canvas made with buttons. :)</span><br style="line-height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left;" /><br style="line-height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left;" /><span style="line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">In my free time, I love to read. I read all the time! (well, as much as one can with a full time job and 4 kiddos)</span><br style="line-height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left;" /><br style="line-height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left;" /><span style="line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">Who inspires me? Honestly, I am inspired by Jesus. The love he was able to show everyone amazes me. He willingly tolerated and endured so much. The strength, love, patience, kindness, understanding, etc that he displayed, and still does, is remarkable.</span><br style="line-height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left;" /><br style="line-height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left;" /><span style="line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">Excluding my family and my Bible, it sounds silly, but the one thing I couldnt live without is the sun. I love sunshine! I could never live in the Alaska or the state of Washington where there isn't much sunshine. We may even move to Florida, the Sunshine state, one day..who knows!</span><br style="line-height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left;" /><br style="line-height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left;" /><span style="line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">One random thing about me...hhmmmm, I am terrified of the dentist and snakes! Not that they have anything in common.:-)</span><br style="line-height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left;" /><br style="line-height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left;" /><span style="line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">I am excited to be a part of this announcement. Babies are wonderful in every way! Please pray for both Katie and I as we embark on the journey of motherhood, just in different ways! :) -Amanda"</span></span><br />
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</span></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18px;">Amanda has offered to the winner one 8x10 wrapped canvas in whatever colors and wording the winner wants. </span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18px;">How exciting is that? I plan to order one with the baby's name and whatever colors the nursery ends up being when the baby is born, but one of you gets it for free!</span></span></div><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18px;"><br />
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</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">2. Follow my blog publicly on GCF. 1 entry </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">3. Follow Amanda's blog, <a href="http://johnamandaandkids.blogspot.com/">The Family That God Built</a> 1 entry</span></div><div style="text-align: center;">4. Heart Amanda's <a href="http://www.etsy.com/shop/AmandaSimpkins?page=1">shop</a> 1 entry</div><div style="text-align: center;">5. Buy something from Amanda's <a href="http://www.etsy.com/shop/AmandaSimpkins?page=1">shop</a>. 3 entry</div><div style="text-align: center;">6. Blog/tweet/faceboo/post to giveaway site (or somehow get the word out) and post link for verification. 1 entry per post</div><div style="text-align: center;">7. Vote for my blog on the fence (see side bar). This can be done daily. 1 entry per day per vote</div></div>Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com153tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-36002437110052494132012-01-03T12:33:00.000-05:002012-01-03T12:33:34.135-05:00My New Adventure<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBfE6K_8cx8pqD1zZcwZYbY5pFIRjje3qKRU3UO_CMNQjq9v9W_yT87SF2kZMCWc0Qyfq_xFUdAprnNTPxPeSBUYTwtLqmzfg-ipS_ifUCBUWrLuvkMS9HHQLCMtShPVZgsgI_8ZSJWao/s1600/2012+wallpapers+pics.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="214" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBfE6K_8cx8pqD1zZcwZYbY5pFIRjje3qKRU3UO_CMNQjq9v9W_yT87SF2kZMCWc0Qyfq_xFUdAprnNTPxPeSBUYTwtLqmzfg-ipS_ifUCBUWrLuvkMS9HHQLCMtShPVZgsgI_8ZSJWao/s320/2012+wallpapers+pics.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>It has officially been a year that I have had this blog. This blog has seen me through some very low points this year, (2 miscarriages etc) and some high points (graduating, starting USF etc). So many people are using this time at the start of the year to look forward, and backwards at what last year held, and what we can look forward to this year.<br />
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So much has happened last year, and this upcoming year holds a lot of changes for us. This summer we are moving back to North Florida. We will be closer to our families, which will be nice, and Isaiah will be starting a new job. Isaiah graduates in May. But probably the biggest change in our lives this year will be a new addition to our family.<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiL2hpqNTl_sOjKgNoEMSWRYMAkKuzarVp3Q8NTN2p1tqYMDkmRv4eTVmO7Bn1_0JHoaF1eCzV0jit97UGOp07uMfDGTBMHmKgORrytJuR8LHT_c9gk8-EEj1Hs-lgepYsMROiLji1oVxY/s1600-r/Picture+331.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="150" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiL2hpqNTl_sOjKgNoEMSWRYMAkKuzarVp3Q8NTN2p1tqYMDkmRv4eTVmO7Bn1_0JHoaF1eCzV0jit97UGOp07uMfDGTBMHmKgORrytJuR8LHT_c9gk8-EEj1Hs-lgepYsMROiLji1oVxY/s200-r/Picture+331.jpg" width="200" /></a></div>Yes, we are expecting a BABY!!!!!! Can you tell I'm excited? But yes, we are expecting in July. I have to say, its been hard keeping it a secret from you, my dear readers. But I can finally spill the beans, and spill I am. Right now I am 10 weeks, and starting to show!<br />
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We actually bought our first baby thing the other week. We found an adorable consignment shop near us, and they had the sweetest little rocking horse. We got it. I know its not one of those necessities, but it helped it all hit for me.<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://freerangekids.files.wordpress.com/2011/01/baby-on-board-sign.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="196" src="http://freerangekids.files.wordpress.com/2011/01/baby-on-board-sign.jpg" width="200" /></a></div>Its all starting to sink in. We are looking at nursery ideas, and name ideas. I am super sick well all the time. I am looking forward to moving past that! The sickness would be part of the reason I haven't posted much lately. I honestly haven't felt up to it.<br />
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I would ask that you all please be praying for us. Because of our previous miscarriages, its a little scary. I'm working on giving all my cares to God and letting Him handle them, but its been stressful.<br />
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<a href="http://www.crossfitchilliwack.com/.a/6a0120a56110ec970c0147e1f057ee970b-800wi" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="http://www.crossfitchilliwack.com/.a/6a0120a56110ec970c0147e1f057ee970b-800wi" width="200" /></a>Because I'm so excited I wanted to do something historical (well historical for Kady Did). I am doing not one, but two baby themed giveaways (but these giveaways are great for not just mothers etc, but everyone!).I'm calling it Babypalooza. I am so excited. These women helping me announce my pregnancy are awesome, and have some great stuff to offer.<br />
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Now I promise that my blog will still feature things God is teaching, and random stuff about my life. It probably will focus on baby T some, but I don't want it to just become a mommy blog. So here is working on making it relevant to others, and God focused!<br />
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Today I have been fretting. Some things where wearing heavy on my heart, and I was worrying and upset. I even called my husband at work and started crying at one point. I was a mess. I was fretting and well just a wreck. My husband (he is so wise) told me to stop what I was doing, rest quietly, turn on some soothing music and rest in God. Well wouldn't you know, I did and it started working? (funny how things work out when I listen to my husband)<br />
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I have a pandora channel for soothing old hymns, and when I'm stressed and upset I put it on and rest in my Savior. I put it on and started praying that God would work out what I was fretting about. A peace just washed over me. Yes, the situation was still there, but I wasn't worried about it. I know that God had it under control. My soul found peace in my Lord; He is in control and my worrying does nothing.<br />
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Then the song Jesus Paid It All came on and the first verse was exactly what I needed to hear.<br />
"<span style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; text-align: left;">I hear the Savior say,</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; text-align: left;">'Thy strength indeed is small;</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; text-align: left;">Child of weakness, watch and pray,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; text-align: left;">Find in Me thine all in all.'"</span><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Wow! Isn't that perfect? Yes my strength is so small! When I lean on my own understanding, and my own strength I quickly crumple. Life just falls apart when I try to work in my own strength. When I finally gave the situation to God, I realized that I don't have to face it alone. I don't have to face life on my own strength. Because I am a Christian, I don't face life without hope, or alone, I face it with the Creator of the universe! </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: left;">When I look to myself for strength, I fail. I fall apart. I fret, but when I look to my God for my all in all, then I can face anything. I'm not saying its always easy. And I'm not saying life with Christ is always easy, but I am saying that I have a strength that is not my own. </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">I know that my strength, in and of myself, is small. I know that when I look to myself I am weak. But I know that the Savior of the world has more than enough strength for me to lean on. And when I find my all in all in Him, I am at peace.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
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</div>Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-37714195595299838992011-12-20T14:18:00.000-05:002011-12-20T14:18:59.900-05:00Random Thoughts About Serving GodSomething I'm really thinking about is how much do I share my convictions and beliefs. How much do I say "hey, this is what I believe." or how much do I just let my actions show my beliefs? Its something that I think everyone needs to work through in their own way. <div><br />
</div><div>I knew someone that was constantly sharing his beliefs, you can't meet him without hearing about his faith. He preaches on the street corners, and he is so open. But then I know people that completely do not share their faith at all. They just say that God will work through them, but then they act no differently than anyone else, and you can't tell the difference.</div><div><br />
</div><div>Along with this, how do you balance showing the love of God with saying, ok this is my standard and I want to not be tainted by the world. How do you stay out of the world, but take Jesus' example and be loving to people that are obviously sinners? </div><div><br />
</div><div>Honestly, I don't have the answer. I mean to me, I think that my faith is such an integral part of my life. You just look at me and I'm obviously different. I wear long skirts, modest shirts and I have very long hair. But then I want to not just look at me and then my testimony stop, but I want my actions to show Christ, His love and His power. </div><div><br />
</div><div>I have to admit that I need to do a better job of making sure that my God is the focal point of my life. I dont want it to be something that is just a part of my life, I want it to be the thing that guides my life. I want everything to do to praise the Lord. </div><div> </div><div>Something I see so much of is people feeling like they have to follow certain rules to earn God's salvation and favor. I think this is so wrong. This changes the revelations from the Word of God and the convictions that He gives and makes them something that becomes like a prison and pressure. It saddens me so much because my beliefs and the revelations that I have don't mean that I'm in a prison. It makes me happy to follow them because is my way of showing God that I love him. Its like making supper for my husband or getting him a special present. I don't do it because I have to follow some rules to earn favors and salvation, I do it to show my love.</div><div><br />
</div><div>I want God to be the thing that my life wraps around. I want to people see how much joy serving God puts in my life. I want them to see that loving God and serving Him has changed my life and continues to change my life I want people to see that.</div><div><br />
</div><div>But how hard is it balance everything in my Christian life. I think that I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to live in the way that serves my God, and the way He has shown me. God will take care of how people see what I do, and how my testimony gets across. I started to realize that it isn't my job to make sure people get the right idea, its His job. As long as I'm living my life the way He has shown me, and showing Him how much He means to me, than He will have to worry about all his other creation and how they view me.</div>Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-2153008554404052562011-11-30T11:44:00.000-05:002011-11-30T11:44:51.442-05:00Making God FirstI feel like our life is changing at a break neck speed right now and I haven't updated you all about it. Well, this post will not be about our rapidly changing life, that post will come later. No I promise it really will. This post will be about something else. Something God has been pounding into my head, and heart, a lot lately. Its come up in so many conversations, and in my Bible reading, and sermons. Just oh so many places.<br />
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This thing God has been showing me is how important a personal walk with Him really is. A personal relationship with God has to be everything in your life. It has to be the thing that you make the most important. I have to admit that lately I have not been doing a good job at working on my relationship with God. I have not made it a number one priority. So many times I think about working on my relationship with father, my family and others, and I start to neglect my relationship with God. What is wrong with me? Why is it that my relationship with God is one of the first things that I so quickly drop when things start to get busy? I know, I am ashamed to admit it. It is so wrong. But I have promised to always be honest on here.<br />
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So back to what God is showing me. I am realizing that he does not want my leftovers. He does not want what I have left over in my time to give Him. I know that in my relationship with my husband I have to make an effort to build our relationship. I can't just give my husband my scraps of time, and expect my relationship with Him to grow. I am realizing (and yes God has taught me this before, but in my somehow human mind I seem to forget this) that God needs my attention. He needs more than I even give my husband. If my other activities are taking away from my relationship with Him, than it should never by my relationship with Him that suffers, it should be that I need to take something out of my life that is distracting me. Working on my relationship with God should be the most important thing in my life.<br />
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Something that I have seen in my growing up (I'm at the ripe old age of 20, gasp!) is many of my friends, and aquaintances that I thought would never leave their faith are leaving everything I thought they believed in. Many people that came from good Chrstian families, and who I thought had strong Christian backgrounds are renouncing their faith. Now in many of their lives, it has to do with many different reasons, and I'm not saying that any one reason causes this, but something I am seeing as a big issue is that these people do not have their own personal relationship with God. In so many of these "good" Christian families the parents have a relationship with God, and teach their kids a certain way to live, but the kids never develop their own relationship with God. They rely on their parent's rules, and their parent's relationship with God, and then they grow up, and their parent's relationship with God will not hold them anymore. They flounder. I have definitley felt that way.<br />
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Something I have found, as a wife, is that it is easy to rely on my husband's relationship with God. Its easy to just say ok well He has a relationship with God, so I'm fine (ok well maybe not quite that simplified but you get the general picture). I know, that is so wrong. When I try to rely on His relationship, it puts so much pressure on Isaiah, and not only am I not getting what i should from God, but it hurts my relationship with Isaiah, and his relationship with God.<br />
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So here I am, saying that I am far from perfect. My relationship with God is far from perfect. But I need to work on not letting my busy life get before my relationship with my Savior. My Savior should be the most important Thing in my life. But ashamedly I say, sometimes He isn't.<br />
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I want to start making my Lord a priority. I want to make spending time with Him the most important thing in my life. I want my God to be first.Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-60017740373152203252011-11-18T18:47:00.000-05:002011-11-18T18:47:36.395-05:00Need Some Help From My ReadersLately I've been thinking a lot about homeschooling. As many of you know, I was homeschooled until college. It was an interesting experience, and definitely shaped who I am. We were not the family that you think about as "homeschooling". We interacted with others. We had a good education that prepared us for college. We did not wear khaki jumpers (not saying that those who wear khaki jumpers are bad). I am just saying I went through homeschooling and came out the other side.<br />
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Now I am studying to be a teacher myself. It has amazed me how much of a prejudice there is against homeschoolers. I know that it is a very touchy subject for many people. But I feel like I am coming from both sides. I went through homeschooling and yet I'm studying to be a teacher.<br />
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I also have a unique perspective because I have been all the way through it. I look back and see things that worked well, and things that didn't work so well for me. I have been thinking about an idea. I wanted to get some feedback from you all on it. What do you all think about having a homeschool blogathon? I was thinking about having some moms that homeschool write, and some ex homeschoolers write and all link up. And maybe have an opportunity to take questions from people. If anyone is interested in doing this with me, or would be interested in what would be said, let me know. I am trying to feel out and see if there is any interest in the blog world.<br />
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If anyone that has a blog would be interested in reposting this and helping me feel out interest, I would really appreciate it. Thanks!Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-82378445523223540992011-11-03T18:56:00.000-04:002011-11-03T18:56:28.386-04:00Healthy and BeautifulIf you go back to my first blog post this year I said that I wanted to get healthy. So far this year I have done nothing but let myself go. I have had stress after stress and lots of excuses. I have gained weight. Its bad.<br />
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I hate the way I look. I know its not good to hate the way you look, but then some would say its not good to be content with yourself with you weigh as much as I do. So I guess no matter who I talk to, I'm not a winner. but I do hate myself. It got to the point that I don't want to go out because I'm thinking about what people are thinking about how much I weigh. I don't want to see any old friends because I wonder what they are thinking about the way I look.<br />
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I know that I may sound very self-centered, and that added to all the guilt and frustration I had. I felt that no one could love me because of my weight. It was exacerbated by the fact that people so many people started talking to me about the my weight. I know it was because they cared, but it felt like no one loved me for me.<br />
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I guess I felt like no one loved me just for my personality. I felt like if I didn't look the part, I wasn't good enough. This comes from many years of feeling fat, ugly and then hear I go, gaining weight. I just wanted to feel beautiful.<br />
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Thankfully I had Isaiah telling em I was beautiful even though I was overweight. I guess I didn't believe him. More than that, I wanted to believe that someone God had made me beautiful. I wanted to think that He loved me and had made me special. I felt like somehow He had made me beautiful and yet somehow I had messed it up and He didn't want to look at me.<br />
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I know the way I felt was wrong, but I promised to always be honest on here. So I will be honest. I still struggle with all this. Part of my resolution to get healthy was to see myself as beautiful, and I have to admit that I'm still working on that. I still feel ugly because I am overweight. I still hate the way I look. But I'm starting to accept that for some reason God made me not stick thin. He made it harder for me to lose weight. He didn't make me naturally thin, and that's ok. He made me beautiful to Him.<br />
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And I am starting to realize that I am beautiful to Isaiah. I am so thankful for a husband that sees me as beautiful no matter my weight. He tells me he thinks I'm still beautiful. I don't understand why he thinks I'm beautiful, but somehow he does.<br />
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So I'm still working through how I feel about myself, but today I started working out. I wanted to workout, and start feeling better. I hate how tired I am. I hate how I look. I don't want to lose weight through crash diets, or purging. I want to get healthy in a way that can be long term.<br />
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So I start working out. I start getting to a place that I can feel like I'm healthy and I'm happy with the way I look. I know I need to work out how I feel about the way I look.<br />
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So as you can see, I'm a work in progress. I haven't arrived. I am not perfect. I struggle, I gain weight. I'm imperfect. But I'm honest with you. I want to feel beautiful and accept myself.Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3183819609322800330.post-60568518216827976722011-10-25T16:46:00.001-04:002011-10-25T18:24:54.344-04:00Submission, LDD, Partnerships (and all kinds of things)<span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">I recently heard about something called Loving Domestic Discipline (or LDD). I saw a comment on facebook about it and it made me want to learn more. LDD is where the husband disciplines his wife using spankings, and other ways of implementing pain for things on their wife. They do this in the same way many spank their children, for disobedience or failing to perform correctly. Also many do maintenance disciplening where they spank or punish the wife somehow at certain intervals to help keep her obedient.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">I have to say, after learning about this I was greatly disturbed. LDD is presented as helping women be submissive to their husbands. If the women somehow disobey their husbands, or do not respect them, or are not submissive they are punished.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">I am very much believe in wives being submissive to their husbands.<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Charis SIL', charis, Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">I have always heard about marriage being a partnership, which it is. But in any good partnership there is a senior and a junior partner. The junior partner has a say in the desicions, and many times makes many of the day to day desicions, but when it comes down to making big desicions the junior partner knows that the senior partner makes the final desicions. </span></span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f3f3f3; font-family: inherit;">In my marriage, Isaiah and I work together. There are times when we haven't agreed on a decision and I have to let him make it. Many times it works out much better, and he is able to see things I am not able to see. When I don't agree with him, I voice what I'm seeing, and feeling to him. He is great about listening to me, and taking what I say into advisement. Then he makes a decision. Yes, sometimes I don't agree and I have to give my feelings to God, but it always works out.</span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f3f3f3; font-family: inherit;">I have seen many marriages not do well when the wife tries to take over and be in control. There is no such thing as an equal partnership marriage, or I have never seen one. There will always be a senior and junior partner. Something I have noticed is that typically when the woman says there is an equal partnership, its typically the woman in charge. </span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f3f3f3; font-family: inherit;"> I am not saying women are second rate to men. I am not giving up women kind or anything. I also know my opinion can be very uncomfortable and unpopular, but its what I believe.</span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f3f3f3; font-family: inherit;">But I wholeheartedly disagree with LDD. I can't even believe that a husband would want punish his wife like that. This idea demeans women because it makes it feel like they are not as good as men because they have to be punished and are not able to do what they need to do without a man punishing them. It tells women that they are not capable of making desicions.</span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f3f3f3; font-family: inherit;">But my basic issue is that it just seems like an excuse to beat women, without being looked down on. I feel that violence against women is cowardly. Isaiah has really taught me that men don't hurt women. He feels terrible even when he accidently bumps into me, and he has taught me that real men are that way. Even though many of the women say they want this LDD, I feel like a man that would agree to beat his wife is a coward, and not very secure in himself as a man.</span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f3f3f3; font-family: inherit;">The idea that a man would punish his wife for not doing her "work" at the home is something I struggle with also. I know that I have things I take care of around the house, but Isaiah is always there to help me. I can't imagine him handing a list of what he wanted done and knowing that when he got home I would be spanked because I didn't get it done. This does not breed a loving home, and does not create a sense of a partnership.</span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f3f3f3; font-size: 16px;">I feel that that this type of a marriage would breed fear and resentment towards my husband. I can't imagine fearing my husband getting home because he will punish me. My favorite part of everyday is when he walks in the door from work. I look forward to it all day, and thinking about him coming home to punish me makes me very sad. I can't even imagine this idea of Isaiah punishing me by spanking me.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f3f3f3; font-size: 16px;">As you can see, I hate this LDD idea, but I also hate any kind of violence against women. I think that abuse against women is terrible, and learning about this made me just mad. I know that submission and partnerships are not easy subjects, and there are many different opinions. </span>Katiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15901119910813191460noreply@blogger.com0