Finally... An Update

I know my blog has non-existant the last few months. I am so sorry. I don't have a good reason for this, it just has been a crazy, rough, few months and when things slowed down I felt very burned out on blogging. I am hoping to get back to it with some semblance of normalcy.

So, dear reader, I am sorry. I guess this post will be an update on where I am in my pregnancy, my life, my family etc. I feel like I could write a book on how much has happened these last few months. I am sorry that I haven't kept you all up to date!!

I will start with my pregnancy. I am still pregnant. Seth Jacob is due at the end of this month. I honestly cannot wait to meet him. I am filled with so much love for him, its hard to even explain. The pregnancy has continued to be very rough. I am still struggling with hyperemesis (severe, way beyond normal pregnancy, nausea and vomitting) but thankfully it died down enough that I can maintain some little bit of normalcy. I have been tons of contractions (aka Braxton Hicks) and the doctor says that with how Seth is looking, he thinks Seth will be coming in just a few weeks. I am so excited! Today I hit 36 weeks (or 9 months) so I am ready.

Yesterday I had an ultrasound and it was amazing to see my little man. The dr showed me that he has hair (which was quite exciting!) and showed me his hands and legs. Finally the dr looked at his face and he was sucking his thumb. Seeing him suck on his thumb, and being able to see his tongue moving, and his fingers all curled together was such a surreal movement. I started to tear up. So many times in this pregnancy its been easy to focus on the negative with how I'm feeling and what is going on around me, but in that moment it hit me that God gave me a little baby. This baby is not just a lump inside me that makes me sick, he is a real little baby that I love. Its hard to describe the feeling, and honestly I can't believe that I am confessing that I sometimes felt like it was a lump making me sick, but I promised honesty here. But I saw his little lips and tongue sucking, and his chest rise as he practiced breathing I was filled with a complete and total love for this little boy that God has allowed me to carry inside me.

Next I'll give you a short update on my life. Isaiah graduated college! It was a very exciting day for all of us. He has worked so hard and for so long, and with lots of help and support from our Savior, he walked across the stage and graduated. It was a very proud day. After he graduated we moved from St. Petersburg, FL to Ocala, FL. Isaiah is the general manager of a graphics company (aka any kind of digital designed things such as business cards, signs, tshirts, banners etc) and seems to really love it. God has allowed the business to be doing well, and again I am so proud of him.

I am learning to be used to Ocala. Its nice being closer to our families, especially during the pregnancy. I can't wait to introduce Seth to all his vast amounts of family, who are all very excited that he is coming

I would give an update on what God is teaching me, but honestly with all that has happened that would take far more space than my little blog could contain. I will post more later about it, I promise. But I think the biggest thing I am learning, and have been throughout this pregnancy, is how little I really have control over in my life. God really is in control of everything! I thought I had control over my body, where I lived, my friends etc, but everything I thought I controlled, God took the control out of my hands and said, "Dear daughter, you really don't control it, so just let Me handle it." I really am trying. Its a constant struggle to allow Him to be in control and not want to grab it back. But every time I try to take it back, everything just falls apart. I wish I could say I am the picture of contentment and peace in my circumstances (those of you that really know me are probably dying laughing at this picture right now) but alas I am not. I am very discontent and impatient most of the time. Thankfully I serve a patient and loving God that keeps working with me in all my humanness.

That is all for now. I will try to write more. I hope to post nursery and belly pictures later. Hopefully this is the start of being more blog oriented again. Thank you for sticking with me through the long lull dear faithful reader.

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Its a BOY!!!

So we were supposed to find out the gender of baby T on May 15. We had been getting so many comments and questions about the gender and when we would find out. I was so excited to find out for sure what it was, though we were pretty sure we knew what it was.

Since we found out we were pregnant Isaiah and I had been pretty sure we were having a girl. We had called the baby "little girl". Most people in our life thought it was a girl. Everyone seemed so sure. We were so sure we had only picked out a girl's name. Isaiah was so sure that it was a girl he didn't want to even think about boy's names. I had a little girl's nursery all picked out.

Well I went in for a routine doctor's appointment and the midwife I was seeing that day couldn't find the baby's heartbeat. She wanted me to get an ultrasound just to make sure everything was ok. I honestly didn't complain because I got to see the baby. The ultrasound tech said everything looks great, but do you want to know the gender. Though I wasn't expecting to find out the gender at that point, I jumped at the chance. She said, "well its definitely a little boy."

I have to admit, I was totally shocked. I was so excited though. I couldn't stop smiling. I then had to tell Isaiah. I went by his work to tell him in person, and he wasn't there. I couldn't hold it in. I was thrilled. I called him and he told him. He was so shocked. He had been so sure, but he was excited.

After finding out it was a boy, we had to rethink, well everything. I started looking at new nursery ideas, that would work for a little man. And then we had to start working on a name.

I settled on a nursery but we were still very stumped on a name. It was not easy to give someone a name they would have for the rest of their life! Finally one night at about 11 pm Isaiah texted me a name, though he was about 20 feet away. I loved it! So we finally decided on the name.

Our little boy's name will be Seth Jacob. I can't wait to meet little Seth. He is such a miracle from God. I never imagined being on this journey right now. Its been a crazy journey, but God has been so real and has given me His strength when I felt like I had no more strength.

Your Moving!

Dear Baby T,

I love you so much. I got to see you this week on the ultrasound. You are getting so big! I couldn't believe it. I know you are growing, but to see how much you have changed always amazes me. It makes me so excited to meet you and hold you. Sometimes I lay in bed (when I'm unable to sleep, which is quite frequent right now) I wonder what you will look like. I wonder if you will have daddy's blue eyes, my smile (it runs in my family you know) or daddy's nose. I think about holding you and watching you smile.

You started REALLY kicking this week. I have felt you for a while now, but this week you started to really move. I love feeling you move around and it always makes me smile. You love when daddy talks. You always get very active when he is around and talking. I you pray you and him will always have a special bond.

You love when I put on some music to worship God. Any time any music comes on about your Jesus, you start moving. It makes me so excited to teach you old hymns, new songs and other music to worship our God. I can't wait to teach you about our God. I can't wait to tell you the stories of the Bible, and show you the wonders of our Lord. I love Him so much, and I pray that will fall in love with Him more than I am. I pray you will have a strong faith in our God at a very young age.

I can't wait to meet you. I love you little one.

Love,
Your Mommy

Letter to Baby, Week 15

Dear Baby Tamblingson,

First of all, your daddy and I already love you so much. I can't imagine what life will be like with you. I know that life will totally change once you arrive, and it already is, but I can't wait for that day. I love feeling you move, and knowing you are there. I love thinking about you, and wondering what you will look like.

Your daddy already loves you so much. I wish you could see how his face lights up when he talks to you. He loves holding my stomach and talking about you. He loves that when he talks to you, you start moving around. He can't wait to meet you.

I know this time has been hard on both of us. I know that we will be ok. I just worry about you. I know that with this sickness, you can be in danger and it scares me. I know that they say most babies whose mothers have hyperemesis are ok, but I'm still scared for both of us. Sometimes I feel like I'm already a bad mother to you because I can't give you what you need, though I know that there is nothing I can do about it.

I love you,
Your Mommy

Quick Pregnancy Update

Its been a very rough pregnancy so far. Right now I am still very sick, and struggling. I'm on bed rest and still sick. But I am attempting to get back to posting. I have seen on some other blogs where mommy's wrote letters to their baby on the blog. I think its sweet, and wanted to start.

By the way, baby is doing well. We are 15 weeks along. Baby is growing well. We are happy that things are going so well. Soon I will post pictures of the bump and sono. But for now, you get my journal updates. :)

Please be praying for baby and I. There is worry that there could be some serious issues later on due to how sick I am. I am ready to feel better.

Big News

So I know that I have been totally out of contact for quite a while. I am sorry. The last few months have been completely crazy, and its just been hard to write. I wanted to write a quick note about what was going on, and I promise to fill you all in more later. So as you know, things were crazy with my health. We weren't sure what was going to happen.

I wasn't getting better, and the dr couldn't figure out why I was still saying so sick, and losing weight so fast. I went to the dr and we talked about the next steps we would take to figure out why I couldn't keep food down, and what to do about having a second surgery. We decided to go ahead with a second surgery, and she was going to send me to a GI specialist to have a scope and figure out whats wrong. At the end of the visit she came back in the room with a shocked look on her face.

She said, well your pregnant. We aren't sure why we didn't catch this with all you have happened, but you are definitely pregnant. She couldn't believe it, we couldn't believe. Its been a total rollercoaster.

After being told I may always be infertile, and getting pregnant would be very difficult, and how sick I was, this baby is a miracle. The dr said she was amazed that I didn't miscarry with all the procedures and medicine I had. We were so shocked and nervous about losing the baby.

Well I am 12 weeks now, and the baby is very healthy. Its been a very rough pregnancy, and that is why I haven't posted. We are hoping its starting to get better, and I will fill you all in more later. I've never gotten this far along with the pregnancy, and seeing the baby on the ultrasound, and hearing its heartbeat, has been amazing.

I promise to post more later, especially when I feel better.