10 Day You Challenge

Sorry its late, I am really hoping to do it everyday from here on out. 

So today is nine loves. This should be fun. 

As most of you know, I love God. He is definitely my first love, but I didn't put Him on the list, because this list seemed almost too silly to even put Him on it. So before I even start the list I will say I love God.

1. Well this one is easy. I love my dear husband, Isaiah. He is so wonderful. He is everything a true man should be. He is sweet and kind, and yeah. Wow you can tell I'm in love. hehe

2. I love my adorable baby girls, aka my sweet cats. We adopted Abby and Mara from the SPCA, and are so glad we did. I had a friend who said she was not a cat person but our cats changed her. They have so much personality. Abby is our little princess. Mara is our cuddly little thing.

3. I love clean bathrooms. I'm slightly ocd about having a clean bathroom. Its one of my favorite things.

4. I love all things antique. I used to hate looking for antiques and anything antiquey, but now I love them. 

5. I love Checker's fries and chocolate milkshakes. Yes, its horrible for me. Its that food that I love when I want grease, and comfort food. 

6. I love history. I love reading about it, talking about it and learning about it. But most of all I love teaching about it. I think its such a shame when people say history is boring and they hate it, because history can be so fascinating. Though I don't think it needs to be every person's favorite subject, I do think you can make it interesting to basically everyone (except for those weird people who just refuse to like it). So yes. I love history.

7. I love sweet tea. Yes, I am Southern, for generations. And I love it. I like it sweet, super sweet. And yes, I can tell when the tea was made, and how it was made. I'm just Southern like that.

8. I love Vera Bradley. I love almost (yes almost) all of her patterns. I'm so addicted to her purses, and her duffle bags and yeah well all of it. My favorite patter right now is happy snails, though there are quite a few I love. The funny thing is my amazing mother-in-law (she really is the best mother-in-law a girl could have) has quite a few Vera Bradley purses. I love seeing them.

9. I love baking. I bake something when I'm stressed, and neither of us eat. I almost always have brownies or cupcakes or something that I made that we don't eat. So if you need some kind of baked food, come see me.

Insta-Friday

Its Friday again. YAY Since its finals day, and I'm doing another post, I will not be doing the 10 day challenge post, but I will start it back tomorrow. But I did want to do a Insta-Friday because they are fun. Ok, yet again (and I think basically all the time, most of pictures are of my adorable cats).

I tried my first cake pop this week. I keep finding yummy recipes, but I wanted to try one. I got a tiramisu cake pop from Starbucks after a date. 

And here is after biting into it. It was mind blowingly delicious.

Ok so I didn't take this picture, but its my new background and I love it. 

Please ignore the clothes in the background. Its Abby all curled up with Isaiah.

Isaiah was petting Abby and then put her in the clothes basket. 20 minutes later she was still in there. 

Sunrise on the causeway. Its so pretty.

Mara and Abby cuddling

So yes, I adore my cats. And with it being the last week of school nothing much exciting has happened in this week. I am hoping that this coming week has more exciting things in it to post.

10 Day You Challenge

I stole this from Krystal, though I've seen it on multiple blogs and I thought it looked like fun, and a good way to relax so I thought I would try it.

I'm so excited to start. Today is ten secrets. This may be a little hard.

1. I still have my first doll. My grandmother gave her to me for my first Christmas. I called her Rock Rock (mostly because that was all I could say). I would sit in my little rocking chair and rock the doll for a long time and sing rock, rock, rock, rock. The name stuck and I still call her Rock Rock. She has always been special to me because I was very close to my grandmother and she died when I was young. Its one of the few things I have to remember her by. She sits on my nightstand still.

2. I hated sewing as a kid. (not exactly a surprise to quite a few people) I hated it with a passion. My mom and grandmother (not the Rock Rock one, my mom's mother) loved it and tried to get me to love it and failed. Everything I touched turned out terribly. I started doing it now and I love it.

3. Isaiah and I carry crutches in our trunk and ace bandages in our car. I am always spraining my ankle and having them has definitely come in handy a couple times.

4. I hate seeing animals hurt. I can't stand seeing pictures of people fishing, or hunting. I have nothing against either of those things. Isaiah loves to fish. I just can't stand seeing animals being hurt. And yes, I eat meat (I love it) but I can't think of the animal. I told Isaiah he can go hunt or fish, but I have to see it as it would come in the store. 

5. I don't like toast. For some reason, I just do not like toast at all. I am not a huge bread person, for some reason, toasting the bread makes it super nasty to me. 

6. I do not know how to French braid. Yeah, I know its stupid, but I know in my head how to do a French braid, but I can't actually do one. Its silly. I should learn that.

7. I couldn't do a cartwheel until I was a teenager. I was never able to do one until I took a basic gymnastics class and finally learned how to do one. I love doing them. They are so fun.

8.  I once took a conversion van down an atv trail, got it stuck between three trees, and they had to cut the trees down in order to get it out. Yeah, that's a story for another day. I still get a stress stomach ache thinking about it.

wow the secrets are getting shorter and shorter

9. I once had a little schoolroom/desk area in a laundry closet. My family lived in a tiny apartment, and there was no place to myself but there was a laundry closet that was about the size of tiny regular closet, but it was just the right size for my little desk, and a chair. I was sit in there with a lamp, and do my schoolwork (I was homeschooled) in the laundry closet.

10. I hate socks. I hate socks with a passion. In the winter I will do anything not to wear them, though they are slightly unavoidable in the winter. Sigh. I hate having my feet enclosed. I also don't really like tennis shoes and other shoes that totally closes in my foot.

That was not easy. whew. I hope you do the challenge with me. If you do, comment me a link. I would love to see what you wrote. 

Feeling Insecure

Preface: I would like to say that this has been one of the hardest, and most soul opening posts I've done. I always say that I'm going to be totally honest on here, and sometimes that is hard. I really wonder if anyone cares. But I pray that what I write helps at least one person. I know that writing it helps me work through things. So please, as you are reading this, don't judge me, or preach to me. I wrote this from my heart. I hope it helps someone out there. 

I have a confession. I've been really struggling with feeling super insecure about a lot of things. I am feeling insecure about how I look, how my life is, and just basically everything in my life. Have you ever felt like that? Have you ever been insecure? I think that I can safely say that all women, at some point in their lives, have been insecure at some point. 

I think the worse time of insecurity is when you are in middle school, and some of high school. I was so insecure in those years. I felt like a total screw up in so many ways. I felt so fat, and so bad about so many things. I felt like I was not good at school, and not good at keeping things together, and just not good at life. I had so many people tell me that it looked like I had everything together and all, but honestly all the way through high school, I felt like I was totally falling apart inside. I hated the way I looked, I hated my personality, I even hated the way I dressed. I was a total mess inside, and trying very hard to make everyone around me think I had everything together. 

As I got older, I will say, I got a little better. I met a man who thinks I'm gorgeous, and tells me that all the time. I got closer to God and started to realize that it only matters to be true to the person God made me, and care what He thinks. 

I would love to say that I have everything together. I would love to say that I'm totally secure in who I am, and that I totally don't ever compare myself to other women. I totally believe that God made me perfect and that I don't dislike any part of my body, and I believe that not only in my head, but in my heart. Wasn't that funny? Ok I know. That is totally not how I am.

I still get super insecure about myself. I can not stand the way I look sometimes. I can not stand my personality sometimes. I still feel like I'm falling apart on the inside and try very hard to not let anyone see it. I look at other women, and what they have and covet it. I compare myself and find myself lacking. I am not saying this is the right way to be, but I always promise to be honest, so there it is.

So I get insecure, so I start talking non stop about something, right now its school. I feel like I've been ruining some relationships, and hurting some, because all I talk about is school. To any of you reading this to which this has been the case, I am truly sorry. I do it because I am so insecure about many things, and my coping mechanism is to just focus on one thing and work really, really hard to be perfect at it so I don't feel like a total failure.

I also totally shut down on relationships because I feel like no one would want to be friends with me. I shut down and don't want to be talk, or be with anyone. I feel so fat and ugly that I'm embarrassed to be around anyone and have them look at me. Its a vicious cycle.

I am sorry if, while I have been going through this, I have hurt or upset anyone. Its my fault, and I am sorry. I am finally starting to get to the place where I am working through things right now. I am trying to spend more time with God, and instead of comparing myself to other women, I am trying to see myself through God's eyes.

I have to say that insecurity is something that I have always struggled with, and I'm praying that I work through it. I am trying to see myself, not as a failure, but as a work in progress. No, I'm no where near perfect. I know that. But God is working on me. 

I also need to see my looks as through Go's eyes. and be more confident in myself. No, I'm not 100 pounds, blonde with a size 2 waist, but I am beautiful. Ok, I still struggle to see the anything beautiful about myself, but I want to work to see myself as beautiful in the way God made me. 

Sometimes I wonder if I am the only one who gets insecure. But then I heard a quote that helped me to see that I am not the only one, "Every women, whether she is sixteen or sixty, still has that awkward insecure self-conscious teenager inside her.""

Is it true? I am the only one who struggles you feel less insecure? Does anyone have a specific verse that helps with being insecure? Do you have something that helps you? 

Please Pardon Our Dust

I am trying to do some blog makeovers and having some issues with it. Blogger is not letting me save the html code for the background. It says javescript void. If you have any suggestions I would love to hear them. I am sorry for the issues going on here. I know its not pretty, and pretty bad. But I'm working on it. Thanks for the patience.

Insta-Friday

So I am going to do a post about my anniversary weekend (I really am, I promise) so I won't post pictures from our anniversary weekend. I'll post other fun pictures from my week.

We got home late on July 4, and I had a ton of homework so we didn't go watch fireworks. My husband, however, loves fireworks so he broke out part (yes part) of his stash and we did some on the porch of our apartment. Ok it was mostly fireworks but it was fun.

Abby is a pyromaniac.

Wow, not the best shot of me. But the sparklers were really neat looking!

Isn't my husband good looking? sigh... ok but being serious, again neat sparklers

This is Mara's "Who me?"

Abby (one on top) had her paw around Mara and they were cuddling. 

I look old.... haha I love fun apps.

She was sleeping and looked oh so cuddly.

As you can see, I love my cats. And honestly, besides school nothing much has happened. I hurt my knee so I've been laid up on the couch most of the week. So you get a week of my darling baby girls.  But oh they are cute. 

I'm linking up, you should too. 

Clothing Fun

I found this really neat website called Polyvore where you can make all kinds of fun outfits and play around with colors. I have had so much fun. I love making outfits and playing around with clothes. I'm not the greatest at it, but I really enjoy it. I wanted to share some of my outfit ideas with you.

You will probably find some serious similarities between my outfits. I would love to have some comments on what you think of the outfits. I've never quite figured out my style, so if you have any insights on to what my style is I would love to hear it.

I love this bolero, and of course Vera Bradley. 

Its so happy and colorful. How fun for a summer church day.

I love the yellow and grey with the casual look.

I love the elegance and simplicity of this outfit. It would be great for winter.

I love the rose color with the flowers. Aren't the shoes amazing?

This was the first outfit I made. I love the color, and the shoes especially.

I would love to see any outfits you made. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.